My first Christmas without you has passed and I dreaded the thought of it for so long before the event. I did not feel like putting up the tree and all the lights and decorations. What was there to celebrate anyway? You are gone and I still cry for you everyday. I missed our shopping trips together, you would have dressed the tree and we would have had such a great time but without you Christmas was just like any other day of the week. No longer the specials time that I used to enjoy so much. You of course said you hated Christmas but I think that was because the 25th was you're late mum's birthday. In the end I did put the tree up with just a few other decorations and I was able to enjoy it as best I could. Still the pain of losing you goes on but maybe it does ease a little with the passing of time. You're in my heart for ever. Love You Steve